Saturday, May 2, 2015

it's okay

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Sometimes you don't have words. Sometimes you can't sort your feelings into thoughts. Sometimes you can't grasp the stories you are begging to speak. Sometimes you can only sit and wrestle with the emotions and then breathe. It's okay to not speak. It's okay to not be heard, sometimes. Sometimes it's okay to just be and no one needs to know it. Sometimes it's okay to just sit with Jesus and be in only His presence and no one else's. Sometimes that's good. Very good.

I've been struggling a lot lately with accepting a future molded by Him and not me. I've been struggling with putting my identity in Him and not in people. I've been struggling with being content where I am. I've been struggling with fear and anxiety. I am human. I struggle.

It's okay, you know. It's okay to not have answers. It's okay to blindly walk through life because we really can't see, anyway. He's the only one who can shed light for our path. Sometimes He snuffs out the light. Sometimes He just takes our hand and holds fast, pulling us through a darkness we cannot penetrate no matter how hard we try. It's okay. Because He's there.

Sometimes you need to remind yourself that life's pretty sweet. Yes, it's tragic. Yes, it's gloomy. Yes, sometimes it's dull. Yes, sometimes it breaks us. But even so, it's beautiful. It's exhilarating. It's mysterious. It's good. Life is good, you know. "Then God saw everything that He had made, and indeed it was very good." Genesis 1:31a

I just thought you might need to know that it's okay to be.

10 comments:

  1. Hmm, I needed this post, Emily dear. It was beautiful and a great reminder for me, as I am right now struggling a lot and feeling overwhelmed with things and life and studies as well. Thank you for sharing!

    Lots of love <3

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    1. I'm so glad it was a help to you, Joy. :) I completely understand ... I needed this post too!

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  2. I firmly believe that it's okay not to be okay. Sometimes life is hard. Sometimes life is beautiful. It's wonderful to be happy, but it's okay not to be okay sometimes, too. I think we need to remind ourselves of that.

    <3

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    1. And I needed this reminder. Love you, Katie-bug. :)

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  3. Emily, you are wise beyond your years. You continue to amaze me. Love you....nana

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  4. AMEN. Thanks so much for this encouraging word.

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    1. Of course! I'm glad it encouraged you. :)

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  5. Looking through some of your old posts, and thank you for this. I needed it <3

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    1. Aw, I'm so glad it could be of help to you. <3 I'll be praying for you. Life gets so rough sometimes, doesn't it?

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